Falling in love

Directed by Ulu Grosbard. With Robert De Niro, Meryl Streep, Harvey Keitel, Jane Kaczmarek. Although they live married lives, two strangers keep running into each other, starting a friendship that could blossom into so much more. Falling in love with the right person will leave you feeling surprised, like you didn't see it coming. You'll marvel at the fact that someone so perfect for you even exists - let alone loves as ... StoryCorps: Falling In Love During The Era Of Don't Ask Don't Tell At StoryCorps, Mike Rudulph and Neil Rafferty remember falling in love, joining the Marine Corps and being deployed overseas. Falling Inn Love. 2019 TV-PG 1h 38m Romantic Movies. When a San Francisco exec wins a New Zealand inn, she ditches city life to remodel and flip the rustic property with help from a handsome contractor. Starring: Christina Milian, Adam Demos, Jeffrey Bowyer-Chapman. Watch all you want for free. If falling in love is a feeling you feel frequently, you'll have less chance of missing the real thing—but more chance of heartache from mistaking attraction for something more. New evidence ... Even after falling in love with someone, stay positive and curious. Falling in love just happens, but staying in love is a series of choices. Choose to keep having fun, learning more about each other, and sharing new experiences. Along this same vein, if you’re falling in love, you tend to experience a warm feeling when you think about your significant other, according to Kang, who has given multiple talks on dating, technology, and entrepreneurship—most notably her TEDx talk: “The Beautiful Truth About Online Dating. They become a priority. Falling in love with someone is a truly beautiful experience… It’s also terrifying, exhilarating, nauseating, and generally a veritable rollercoaster of emotion that’s wonderful and hideous at turns. If you’re fortunate enough to have met someone special and think you’re falling in love with them, you’ll likely experience the following. Falling in love produces a biological state that is a similar high to being on cocaine. More interestingly, Marazziti discovered that falling in love also alters testosterone levels in men and women. Falling in love can cause a lot of anxiety and self-doubt, so it may be necessary for you to build yourself up from time to time. Using positive self-talk can help you to overcome some of the negative thoughts and feelings that you may be having. [6]

Relationships

2008.07.10 00:26 Relationships

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2020.09.22 06:19 ludomastro A Good Cry [Grandpa's Sword]

I am thankful for those that wished me well and that asked for something else in this story. I can't promise it will be regular but I'll try to write an update each week.
This entry is from Sarah's point of view. I wanted to see if I could get inside her head. While I'm not sure I'm getting the nuance of an eleven-year-old right, I'm trying.
[First] [Next?]
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Uh-oh, looks like we’re busted. Really, Dad, why did you have to wake up now? Grandpa was just getting to the good part.
I could tell that Dad was tired but not by much. He was probably more relaxed given that he’d had a few days off … even if it was for Grandma’s funeral. I decided to really look at my father’s face and saw several things. He was annoyed, sure. I caught that much in his voice. But he was also sad and worried. That was weird; Dad was the strong one. I don’t think I’ve ever seen him worried before, not even when he lost his job.
“Tommy.” Grandpa’s eyes got cloudy and reminded me of a storm.
“Pop.” Dad’s mouth tensed up like it did when he wanted to say something he knew he shouldn’t.
I’ve seen this before and it doesn’t end well. I decided that, just maybe, I could stall them for a few minutes if I mentioned Mom was sleeping. “Hey, Dad, we’re making bacon! Can I get you some bacon and toast? Maybe we can all have a bite before Mom wakes up.” Dad seems to snap out of it for a second.
“Right, Mom’s sleeping. Sarah, I think I’ll pass on the bacon but your grandfather and I are going outside to talk for a few minutes.” Dad started stalking toward the porch.
“Pumpkin, I think he’s right. Why don’t you have a bacon sandwich and we’ll be back in a jiffy.” Grandpa smiled but his eyes didn’t light up the way they normally did.
Why is it that adults always think that kids don’t notice anything? It’s like if they play nice we won’t see anything bad. Wouldn’t life be easier if people just always told the truth?
I sighed and started putting my sandwich together. I could hear the angry voices. They tried to whargue – you, know, whisper argue – like adults do when they want to protect kid’s feelings. It doesn’t work but at least they were being nice about it. As soon as I bit into the sandwich, I was flooded with the realization that I was really hungry. After a few dry bites, I went to the fridge and added a little bit of mustard to help it go down.
Sandwich finished, I decided that enough was enough. They were out there discussing me and I wanted – no, I needed to have a say in that.
“… she’s just a kid!” Dad said in a raised voice.
Compared to before, they were shouting. I cleared my throat and just laid it out there. “Dad, Grandpa, I love you both. But, you’re out here trying to protect me from getting my feelings hurt. Meanwhile I can hear you inside the house. You’re also trying to decide things FOR me. I want a say in it.”
Dad started to say something but I held up my hand. The fact that I cut him off probably shocked him to no end and I knew I was pushing my luck so I decided to keep going. “I get it, Dad. I’m not old enough to make ALL the decisions myself, but that doesn’t mean I’m not old enough to make ANY of them. Can’t I at least hear what’s going on and give my input? Is that so wrong to ask? Don’t I get a say in my own life?”
Dad stood there for a minute, his breath fogging the cold air. Grandpa stood there like a stature but I could see the light in his eyes again. Finally, Dad threw his hands up in the air. “Unbelievable!” He whirled toward Grandpa and jammed a finger out at him. “When did you put her up to this?!”
Grandpa’s eyes stayed the same but he started fighting a smile. “I didn’t, Tommy. Swear to, God, I didn’t. You just raised her to think for herself and to fight for herself. The apple doesn’t fall far from the tree, son.” A touch of sadness flowed over him. “It never does, really.”
Dad’s arm dropped slowly. “I … I guess I did. You did the same for me. Tell me though, Pop. Would you go back and do the same thing? Even if it meant that I followed you into the family business?”
The whatsit? Family business? Doesn’t Grandpa farm … or something? And, Dad’s an accountant.
It took me a minute to realize that there was a lot more going on than I understood. I felt like a dog watching a tennis match as I bounced back and forth between my dad and grandpa as they stared at each other and seemed to have a conversation without words.
Finally, Grandpa asked, “Sarah, are you willing to tell your dad about all of your dreams and nightmares this time?”
How did he know?! I stammered out, “Uh, yes. I think I can do that.”
Dad looked like someone had punched him in the gut.
“Go on, Pumpkin. He needs to know.” Grandpa’s voice was both sad and comforting at the same time.
I turned and faced my father. “Dad, I … uh, I haven’t been completely honest with you. I really DO get nightmares but they aren’t about those movies or that video game. I have these terrible nightmares where the monsters are hurting people.”
Dad looked like he was trying to stop himself from crying. I kept going, “Somehow, I know I have to fight them. They’re not just scary, they’re terrifying.”
Tears ran down Dad’s face. He sobbed, “And you know you can’t save them.”
Wait! How does Dad know what’s going on in my dreams? I was stunned.
Dad continued, “It’s dark, and you hear them coming, and you can feel your muscles tensing up.”
Grandpa continued, “Your senses perk up. It’s like you can hear everything, or smell something from far away.”
I finished, “And you grab the nearest weapon you can find and wait for things to come out of the darkness.”
My dad, who had been my rock for as long as I needed one, fell to his knees. “Oh, God! I’m so sorry, baby. I didn’t want this for you. I ran away from it and hoped it would never find you.” His voice turned desperate, “But, you don’t have to chose that. You can walk away like I did. You can be a lawyer or an astronaut or really, anything you want.”
I knew he needed a hug, but I was really confused. “What are you talking about? What do the dreams mean?”
Dad just shook his head. Grandpa knelt down in front of him and gave him a hug. I wasn’t sure what Grandpa said, but it sounded like, “… not the time. We’ll talk later.”
I ran over and hugged them both because it was the only thing that made sense. “Can I get some answers now?”
Grandpa was just opening his mouth when I heard, “Hey, why is everyone up so early?” followed by a yawn. Looks like Mom was awake.
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2020.09.22 06:18 TheOneGoldPepe My story (this is gonna be long)

Starting when I was 12 i would just feel unhappy sometimes. I didn't think of much of it. The world seemed so simple back then. 2 years passed by I started feeling worse. Everyday I felt awful, unhappy. I would look at myself in the mirror and want to stab myself. I just hated me so much. In the next few months I got more insecure. Getting made fun of more and more. I felt so out of place like I didn't belong. Like I should just be dead. I started smoking for a couple months. Slowly realizing that didn't help anything. So I switched to vaping. I wanted to feel nothing. Everyday felt like a chore. Nothing made me happy. I got so good at putting a happy face on that no one ever questioned if I was sad inside. When I went to bed every night I would just sit there and try not to cry. I hated myself, the way I look, the way I act. Everything seemed wrong. I was so close to cutting so many times. And running away from home. I wanted to jump off a bridge and die. It felt like no one cared about me. They were just using me. The day I turned 15 I thought it would be a turning point. I was very wrong. It's so depressing knowing that you are growing up in a world that seems to be falling apart. It's depressing knowing you will always be alone in the maze that id your head. I know other people have the same thoughts. But it never feels like it. Nicotine does nothing. It just adds to your problems. Whenever I would walk to get something to eat. I would look at other people with their partners and think that they look happy, and I would wish I could be like them. I wanted to just have someone hug me. For once. I wanted to feel like I belong. And fast forward up to now. I'm 16. You thought this story would have a happy ending? Fuck no. I'm still stuck. I'm not happy. I'm still alone. I'm still struggling. I still hate myself. And i'm still desperate for a partner. I just want to feel like I'm wanted. I want to feel loved. I want to love someone. But that's not gonna happen. I've just accepted the fact that I am a ugly pathetic worthless person. That no one will ever want to be with.
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2020.09.22 06:17 TheOneGoldPepe My story (this is gonna be long)

Starting when I was 12 i would just feel unhappy sometimes. I didn't think of much of it. The world seemed so simple back then. 2 years passed by I started feeling worse. Everyday I felt awful, unhappy. I would look at myself in the mirror and want to stab myself. I just hated me so much. In the next few months I got more insecure. Getting made fun of more and more. I felt so out of place like I didn't belong. Like I should just be dead. I started smoking for a couple months. Slowly realizing that didn't help anything. So I switched to vaping. I wanted to feel nothing. Everyday felt like a chore. Nothing made me happy. I got so good at putting a happy face on that no one ever questioned if I was sad inside. When I went to bed every night I would just sit there and try not to cry. I hated myself, the way I look, the way I act. Everything seemed wrong. I was so close to cutting so many times. And running away from home. I wanted to jump off a bridge and die. It felt like no one cared about me. They were just using me. The day I turned 15 I thought it would be a turning point. I was very wrong. It's so depressing knowing that you are growing up in a world that seems to be falling apart. It's depressing knowing you will always be alone in the maze that id your head. I know other people have the same thoughts. But it never feels like it. Nicotine does nothing. It just adds to your problems. Whenever I would walk to get something to eat. I would look at other people with their partners and think that they look happy, and I would wish I could be like them. I wanted to just have someone hug me. For once. I wanted to feel like I belong. And fast forward up to now. I'm 16. You thought this story would have a happy ending? Fuck no. I'm still stuck. I'm not happy. I'm still alone. I'm still struggling. I still hate myself. And i'm still desperate for a partner. I just want to feel like I'm wanted. I want to feel loved. I want to love someone. But that's not gonna happen. I've just accepted the fact that I am a ugly pathetic worthless person. That no one will ever want to be with.
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2020.09.22 06:17 EdgyMeow Broken After Abel

TRIGGER WARNING: RAPE
I dunno about you guys, but Abel sent off major pedo vibes. So... Here's this. TW: Rape. Read with caution.
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"Were you going to hit me?!" Brody asked in a yell as Marlon stood dazed.
"I.. Damn it! You always get in the way of things, Clementine!" Marlon yelled at Clem, who stood in front of Brody defensively.
Marlon tried to hit Clem with the flashlight, only to be punched in the nose.
Marlon held his nose, blood oozing out as he whimpered.
"You.. Broke it.." Marlon whispered through the pain.
Brody ran out of the cellar to warn the others, Clementine trying to follow.
Marlon grabbed Clem's leg and tripped her, crawling onto her back and lifting the flashlight in the air.
"I TOLD LILLY YOU WOULDN'T COOPERATE!" Marlon screamed, bringing the flashlight down with full force.
Clem was able to roll to the side, knocking Marlon off of her.
Clem struggled to stand up quickly, tripping a few times before finally running out.
"DAMN YOU!" Marlon screamed, running after Clem.
The two was met with the group, all standing in shock.
"What's going on, Clem?" Violet asked huskily.
"Marlon tried to kill Brody, AND me! He was planning on giving me and AJ to the raiders! Just like he did to Minerva and Sophie." Clem explained.
Confused voices echoed through the air, confirming with Brody that it was true.
Of course, Brody took Clem's side.
. . .
Mitch ran to Lilly, yelling, and trying to save Tenn. He tripped Lilly and kneed her in the face, knocking her over.
Tenn backed up as Mitch stood over Lilly. Before he had time to react, Lilly knocked him back over, trying to stab him in the chest.
Clem popped up, aiming her bow 'N' arrow at Lilly, and shooting.
The arrow hit Lilly in the shoulder, making her grasp it in pain.
"Kill who you have to, take the rest!" Lilly yelled, still holding her shoulder as she dodged another arrow.
And so, the fight began.
Abel attacked Clem, knocking her over.
Before Clem had time to react, Rosie lunged onto Abel, attacking his arm.
Clem slid out from under him, running into the admin building, leaving the others to fight as a few of Lilly's people followed her.
Abel successfully knocked Rosie off of him, running after Clem.
Violet watched as Abel ran inside after Clem, AJ, Aasim and Mitch. She also noticed how Rosie was on the floor whimpering, trying to stand back up.
She ran over and helped Rosie up, just barely escaping the grasp of one of Lilly's other people.
Rosie lunged at the person, gnawing at their leg, then their arm, and finally their head.
. . .
Abel crept towards Clem, who was glancing from him to AJ, Mitch, and Aasim.
"Mitch, Aasim! You get AJ to safety, help the others outside!" Clem yelled, pulling out a knife she had stored away. Mitch and Aasim nodded, running outside with a yell that said, "Come on, AJ!"
Clem could tell by the look on AJ's face - he wanted to stay. He didn't want to leave Clem, but he really had no other choice. He had dibs on Abel, but it looked as if plans were changing.
Abel approached Clem, reaching for her. Clem slashed his hand as he reached. Abel smacked her in the face, earning himself a kick in the knee, dropping him to the floor just as Jane had taught Clem to kill walkers so many years back.
"Fucking cunt!" Abel yelled, standing back up. Abel kicked Clem just as she did to him, and twisted her arm around, pinning her against the wall, and making her drop her knife.
"Y'know, whenever I see someone like you: weak, small, afraid, and still alive? Well. Bet a lot of folks died to get you here." Abel said in his deep voice.
Clem reaches for the lighthouse figure sitting on the desk, only for her hand to be pinned against the wall by Abel.
"No way that's happening, sweetie." Abel said with a disgusting smirk, grabbing Clem by the hair and banging her head against the desk. Clem yelped as her head and the desk made contact, leaving a decent sized gash on the side of her head. Abel pinned Clem, who was now in a daze, against the wall again.
"I'm glad you told your little friends to run along, now I have you all to myself."
. . .
Violet sighed of relief as she got the last person down after forever of fighting.
Louis and Marlon walked up, smiling and fist bumping.
"Thank god we gave you a weapon!" Louis said, hugging Marlon. Marlon hugged back, small smile tugging at his lips.
"Yeah? Well, no way I was going to turn on my best bud." Said Marlon.
"Come on, Vi! Celebrate with us!" Louis said, wrapping his arm around Violet's neck and cheering.
"I can't, Lou. I can't help but think that something's missing." Violet said, looking around.
Everything seemed fine.
AJ was looking for someone - probably Tenn, who Violet noticed was next to Rosie, both the dog and the boy panting.
Ruby and Aasim were talking about who knows what.
Louis and Marlon were being annoying, as always.
Mitch and Willy were talking about, again, who knows what.
Omar was cutting up the humans to cook into ste-
Wait.
Nevermind. He was cutting up a rabbit that had found it's way in.
Everything seemed fine..
Mitch and Willy walked up to Violet, looking like they wanted to say something.
"So, we tied Lilly up. She's alive, but out cold." Mitch explained.
"Alright. Cool." Violet said, a small sigh of relief.
"You just gotta tell us what you want us to do with her! We could kill her and blow her body up!" Willy said excitedly.
"Well, no, but-"
"You're no fun." Willy crossed his arms and stormed off, leaving Mitch and Violet alone.
"Just say the word, and I'm on it." Mitch said before following Willy.
Then, AJ came up to Violet.
"Violet? Have you seen Clem?"
Clem.
That's who was missing.
Before they had time to think, Abel came walking out of the school, a huge smirk on his face.
Abel noticed how everyone in the courtyard stopped to look at him.
"I would pay less attention to me, and more attention to your girl up there. She's gonna need it." Abel said, a disgusting smirk on his face.
Violet pushed past Abel as soon as she heard that, not bothering to stop running.
She could hear yelling outside, Mitch and Marlon probably tying Abel up.
Oh god. Did she hope that he didn't mean what she thought he meant.
Violet inched closer to the open admin door, hearing a quiet whimpering noise. Or maybe crying noise. She didn't know.
Brody came up behind Violet, daring herself to peek in the room.
The first thing Brody saw was Clem's pants belt at her ankles.
Brody felt a small anxiety attack coming, but she kept herself composed as best as she could.
"Vi.. Did he..?"
"I.. Don't know. Just.. Go get Ruby. Tell Louis to.. Keep AJ, and.. The little kids down there. I.. Need you and Ruby."
"Okay.. Okay." Brody turned quickly on her heel, running down the steps, trying to stop herself from puking in the process.
. . .
Mitch watched as Brody ran outside, puking next to the door.
He turned back to Abel, himself feeling nauseous as Abel's smirk grew wider.
"What did you do?" Mitch asked in a dark tone.
"I did what none of you guys were man enough to do. I put her in her place." Abel allowed himself to laugh at his own remark, making both Marlon and Mitch sick.
"Shut up!" Mitch yelled.
"You're just mad that I got to her first."
"I said," Mitch jerked his leg back. "Shut up!" Mitch kicked Abel in the crotch with full force, earning a loud scream.
"Watch it! You're gonna break my-"
Another kick.
"Good." Mitch muttered, landing another kick on his crotch.
. . .
"What happened?" Ruby asked as she finally approached the blonde.
"I don't.. I haven't even got close enough to see her face, Ruby.." Violet started, her herself feeling that all too familiar sick feeling.
She always felt it when Minerva and Sophie "Died", but now, this was greater than any sickness she had ever felt.
"What do we do?" Brody asked.
"You need to talk to her. You two are close." Ruby chimed in.
"Ruby, I.. Can't. I don't want to have to decide wether or not the girl I love was raped." Violet whined.
"Vi. Think about Clementine here. She really cares about you, You're probably the only one she'll let close to her. Just be easy.. Don't touch her too roughly." Ruby explained, earning a sad look from Violet.
No.
She could do this.
She had to.
For Clementine.
Violet sighed, glancing towards the room. She crouched down and crept in, trying to seem as small as possible.
"Clementine..?"
Whimpers and cries.
"Clem..?"
More Whimpers and cries.
Violet got to the point where she could see Clem, finally.
She was bent over, hugging her knees. Violet could see her exposed outer thigh, as well as her unzipped jacket and slightly raised shirt underneath, revealing a bit of her stomach.
"Clem.." Violet gently touched Clem's arm, making Clem jump up and raise her arms defensively.
"Please.. No.. Not again.." Clem said through the very obvious tears, her voice cracking as she spoke.
"Clem.. Clem, it's me. Violet." Violet said, watching as Clem let more tears fall.
"Please.." Clem seemed to see right through Violet, her bottom lip quivering as she sat.
"Clem. Look at me." Violet said softly, grabbing Clem's chin gently and forcing her to look at her.
Clem flinched at the contact, pulling her head away as more tears started to fall.
"It's Violet. See?"
"I.. Is.. Where's.. AJ?"
Violet sighed. Even at her worst time, that girl was still thinking about her boy.
"He's okay, Clem. He's with Louis."
"Ab.. He.. He's gone, right? I don't.. Want to.. See him.."
"Yes, Clem. He's gone, and you're safe."
"I.. I tried to stop him, Vi.. I just.. He.."
"You don't need to explain." Violet cooed, noticing the gash on the side of Clem's head as Clem lowered her head down to cry.
"I didn't want to.."
"I know you didn't."
"Please, Vi.. You can't.. You can't leave me alone with him.."
"Hey." Violet comforted, gently grabbing the brunette despite her further tensions.
"I'm not going anywhere. He isn't going to lay another hand on you."
"Vi-"
"I promise."
Clem took a deep breath, letting a few more stray tears fall.
"He's.. Gone?" Clem's lip continued to quiver, making Violet herself take a few shaky breaths.
"He's not gonna hurt you, Clem.. I won't let him."
Clem took a deep breath, turning away as Violet noticed the crimson liquid oozing from her head.
Violet took a deep breath, mentally preparing herself for what she was about to say.
"Clem.. Ruby needs to take a look at you.." Violet said in almost a whisper, making Clem jerk her head to look at Violet.
"Vi-"
"-I'll be right here. The whole time."
"It hurts.."
Violet fought her own tears and shaking lip, looking up and taking a deep breath.
"I know Clem.. I'm sorry.."
. . .
"What should we do with him?" Mitch asked as he placed his hands on his hips.
"Whatever we have to. If he really did what Brody was telling us.." Marlon trailed off as they watched the disgusting man smirk up at them.
"She was a delight, there's no doubt there." Abel said, laughing in his dark voice.
"We should kill you." Mitch said, raising his knife.
"Yeah." Marlon chimed in. They felt sick to their stomachs when they saw his smirk only grew wider - if that was even possible.
"Do it then. She better be grateful she lost her V-card to me." Abel said, laughing to himself.
Mitch and Marlon shared a glance, nodding in agreement without even having to say a thing.
Without another word, Marlon kicked Abel over and sat on him, watching as Mitch raised his knife at crotch level.
"Maybe this will teach you to not Fuck our friend."
In one swift motion, Mitch brought the knife down on Abel's crotch, making him scream in pain.
After a few minutes, Abel bled to death.
Marlon tied Abel to a post and watched him.
"Let him turn." Marlon said as Mitch turned to leave.
"A fate worse than death." Mitch said as he left the cellar.
"-Exactly what he deserves." Marlon added in, giving the man a glance. Marlon furrowed his eyebrows, closing his eyes and thinking about Clem. She might've broke his nose, but she certainly didn't deserve that. Turning back around to look at the walker, Marlon spit on the corpse, leaving the cellar once and for all.
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2020.09.22 06:11 AlmaVetada47 long story but give it a try

hello.
You can ask me anything and read what i wrote
Im not looking for empathy or any diagnosis
I am a boy in his 20s, I hardly remember anything about my childhood (0-12) Except certain things, such as the death of my pet and some relatives and the multiple occasions that I was physically and sexually abused, in total almost 10 people a lot older than me. All but 3 were family members. I am using the google translator, so I will try to write this in the most literary way possible so that you can understand. I go to the case, due to certain problems in these last two years I think I have come to the conclusion that I am a psychopath. I do not say this without any basis, I have never gone to the psychologist for everything I suffered in my childhood, because my family has never thought that I need it, or perhaps because they do not care about me. And now I've been waiting for an appointment for almost a year, and they haven't called me yet. (Social security) I am thinking about how to summarize my past, I began to live alone when I was 13-14 years old, not for pleasure, but because my parents got divorced and my mother after that went to live in her country, and my father in his house. 20 minutes from mine. I've been alone all this time, I've seen my brothers from time to time, my mother and father as well. But nothing has ever been or is stable. I could make a thousand movies, stories and books about my life and what I lived. Unfortunately it would not be a comedy.
When my cat died in front of me, I was very small, maybe 9 years old. I remember crying for 1 hour with his stiff body in my arms.
I reached a point of sadness or crying that my mind just clicked. I stopped feeling bad. So I put his body upright, analyzing his body. analyzing the situation or something similar, I don't even know what it really was. It was the only time I cried for a loss. When my grandmother died they called my mother to tell her, I was there, she told me, then I went to the room to play a ps2 game. It was just news, information for my brain. I do not remember sadness, crying or homesickness. I loved her very much. She was one of my favorite people. My life has been shit, real shit. Smelly and flies hovering.
I do not consider myself a bad person or a serial killer even though I may think so sometimes.
I know that saying this about me is a bit contradictory but I am a good person seen from the outside. I act socially well even though I am very quiet and I don't know how to talk about anything because nothing interests me, the only thing I want to change but it is difficult for me is to hit or make a joke / hit to a friend, it comes out spontaneously and sometimes I have hurt him , but nothing serious. Once I stubbed out a cigarette on his elbow because I thought he called some kids to bother me while we were sitting in the street, I did it because when they arrived he started acting fucking strange and saying strange things, I felt overwhelmed and nervous I did it I didn't want to hurt him, but I did overdo it. Otherwise I'm like this. Do you need a favor? I'm there. Do you want to go out and do any bullshit? Give me 20 minutes and I'm there. Have you hurt me and do you regret it? I forgive you. Sometimes just because I'm a good person, people have taken advantage of me, laughed and talked about me behind my back. Especially this last person that I mentioned. Sometimes I think about taking off the mask of a good person and sending everything to hell
I'm more of being alone at home with the computer, but I have friends from school, and I have never failed them maliciously. I have weird gestures and I speak weird, I do weird things and I enjoy weird things. I have come to think previously that I was autistic, retarded, or bipolar.
Bipolar because I have had incredible paranoia, visual hallucinations and parallel dreams too vivid, if you understand what I say you know what I mean. and autistic because of my way of socializing.
Growing up I have realized many things, especially what I unconsciously copy from people. Styles, gestures, ways of speaking etc. Even emotional attitudes.
on a regular day in my life I feel almost nothing. I should be sad, or angry about my situation, but nothing. I see myself in the future with nothing, no family or money and continue to feel nothing / do nothing to be well. My routine is to go to the bathroom to shit while I smoke a joint, spend an hour until my legs fall asleep and then go to the computer, roll another one and so on until dawn, until I eat incredible amounts and then sleep. A deplorable life. Nothing of profit.
Why do I think I am a psychopath?
Because most of the people who know me hint at it.
Few feelings, regrets and happiness. I have no real evil, I think they are fears. Sometimes I lose control with my pet. I don't feel superior, neither does anything like that. But when my patience is full, anything makes me explode. For example, now I'm tense about this and certain things aside, and my pet is prowling all over me, looking for affection and climbing everywhere. I just want to finish writing this and relax with him
I could stop writing and be with him for a while but when those things happen to me I can't reason. Many times for other bigger things, for example, once I planted marijuana in my house, I was very excited, I had been getting up early every day, having breakfast and doing productive things with plants and that, it motivated me a lot and I greatly appreciate nature, the life etc. One day I woke up and found that it ate all the plants. I started crying, feeling angry and screaming insults of all kinds. I chased him, I grabbed him by the neck to stop him, I hit him a few times, nothing hard, even too lazy for the vast majority of owners of my city. I didn't mean to hurt him but I could have done it and not feel remorse.
I have lost control many times, especially when something hurts. Losing something I want, a deep conversation badly carried out. I have never physically hurt anyone outside of school, even when I have lost control, the worst thing I have ever done is hit the wall with the greatest possible force on a few occasions. I've never hurt anyone except me.
I am not afraid of anything, what most resembles fear to me is losing something monetary or emotional, such as a relationship. And it is not fear. It's something like that I can't find a word for it. Most people would shit themselves if the police saw them in the street smoking a joint, without a mask and with a knife on top (sometimes I carry it because a mobster neighbor threatened me) But it didn't make me feel anything. The agents continued on their way and did not even speak to me. This has happened about 4-5 times in total lol. I never abide by consequences for anything. I am not someone attached to the illegal, but you understand what I say.
When I was very little, with a neighbor of mine, we saw scary videos on YouTube, people committing suicide and various things of that kind. Since I was about 15 from time to time I go to bestgore.com. Due to one of my paranoias I think that an old friend hacked me and was spying on me through the webcam and even in online video games. That is why sometimes I write certain threats on google, believing that she reads it, sometimes when I see videos of people having their throats cut, I smile at the camera to impose the empire of fear on her. Sometimes I smile because something really amused me, for example a snitch getting shot in each limb and saying stupid things to save himself. Or a fucking Colombian who does not know sharp knives and uses a butter knife and is there for 10 minutes without stopping, traumatizing and depleting what little soul he has left.
I am not a murderer, I do not want to hurt people even if in my paranoia I suggest it. My reasons for these threats are basically because I feel cornered and I simply add fuel to the fire. I think sometimes just to feel something. I had an anonymous conversation with a person, and he told me something about serotonin, and that in psychopaths when there is a chemical imbalance it generates paranoia and delusions. I won't be able to know what's wrong with me until I get money to pay for a psychologist. But currently I don't even have enough to eat, and in a short time my house will be seized. I have nothing in this world or anyone. Living my life is the best suicide method, i really need something to change my destiny
I would like to be able to answer some questions you have, talk to someone about this or just know other points of view. I know I have extended myself too much and perhaps I have said too little. If you ask me for something in particular I will be direct. have only written 1% of everything I have to say, I mean that inquiring about any stupidity will be a gold mine for sure

Thanks for reading
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2020.09.22 06:08 vsentrixx I'm sorry

I'm 15 and I just don't want my emotions anymore I suffer from major depression and I just want to give up every relationship I get into I get fucked around or cheated on I've been in 20 relationships and yes ik I'm 15 but like I just don't know what to do anymore cause I don't want to fall in love and get left feeling more empty than I normally do cause it really fucks with my mental state I start debating if I was good enough or I should try harder even knowing I try insanely hard at what I do but I never secede please help
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2020.09.22 06:06 player0624 [RF] Realistic Fiction

thoughts??? ideas on where to take it??

Naturally, I use a washing machine to wash my clothes. Unnaturally, I think about how it makes it so easy to forget dirt stains and the memories that came with them. Even the stubborn ones go away after a while. The laundromat doesn’t let you wash rubber-lined mats, but I wash them anyway. I conceal them in a ball of cotton sheets and shove them into the corner washer as quickly as possible. The same way, I shove them into the dryer. They only need 4 quarters; a good 20 minutes and they dry right up. It's amazing. The fresh scent Tide on my washroom rubber mats, all the filth and blood wrung out of them. I want to think the dryer is gentle to them, pulling out the moisture softly and kindly. But in reality, the inside of the dryer is aggressive and unforgiving. Dangerously humid and bleak. Yes, I know this for a fact. There’s no one else here except for the plump middle-aged lady who’s always at the front folding other peoples’ laundry. Everyone calls her Bea. Does Miss Bea get pleasure out of folding soft strangers’ clothes; does she ever find money in their pockets? And what type of people don’t have time to wash their own laundry? I’m thinking this as she steams the pleats of a woman’s dress that she couldn’t even dream of ever fitting into. I wonder about the woman who wears that dress – probably tall, slender and deliciously round in all the right places. Maybe she wears it a big established corporate office. A big businesswoman like herself wouldn’t wear anything less pretty. In fact, she shouldn’t – unless I was with her.We, meaning myself and my laundry walk ourselves back to my car. The air outside is a type of cold you just want to breathe in like the smoke from a Belmont cigarette. It’s the type of air that hurts to breathe after a while. The sun was pale and sad, like the moon had decided to come out instead. Maybe the sun took a sick day. The snow however looked rather sparkly and confident but only where no one had walked all over it and ruined it. Everyone loves new snow but its only fun shovelling until it turns into a disgusting sludge of dirt, branches and lost mittens and hats – then I’m lucky if I find a matching pair to wear the next time it snows. I plop the drawstring bag under the cheap black carpet lining of the trunk where the spare tire should have been. Walking back to the front of my 2014 Toyota Corolla, I look back at the laundromat:NEW WORLD LAUNDRYIt’s a weekly trip to the washed-out pale blue and white sign on Parliament Street. But for some reason I don’t think I’ll be back next week.I inhale a couple Oreos that I have in a little packet kept in the glove compartment. Then the metaphysical world hits me and I feel the rough texture of the third Oreo. I wonder why they bother putting such a complicated design on the cookie when no one pays attention to them. What’s the point of making things more complicated than they have to be? Does it affect the Oreo experience? I laugh out loud in my sparse voice. Here I am, in my cab with a box of designer cookies. When did I start affording such luxuries? Of course, I knew it from the Cross of Lorraine. Geometric crusader cookies. I even remember googling it. I laughed again, louder this time as though someone was going to start laughing with me. The cream is sickly sweet but soft enough to make me want more. So, I have a few more before rolling down my window and wiping the cookie crumbs off my long veiny fingers. My hands instantly freeze in the cold air and I wish they’d just fall off. I am elemental so this will be no resolution. I will exist even after I have existed. Water exists even after it goes down the drain. They just wash it and send it back to you. The same old water. How do they call it? Water purification. I reckon I’ll be drinking laundry water the next time I go back home for a cup of tap water.The streets are far too bare to make money. All I know is I’m wasting gas driving around the city waiting for someone to hail me to the side or for an operator to buzz me in and assign me a pickup. Maybe I should go home and drop off my laundry, I think. But instead I stop for a cup of coffee. I park on the flat street in between an ugly 2007 Saturn Ion and a clunky Subaru Tribeca.This coffee shop is sweet. It’s one of those cute little cubes squished slightly behind a failing law office and another lesser quality restaurant. The baristas wear white shirts and beige aprons. Mmm. I spot the woman who makes my bitter coffee taste sweet. She could even make coffee burnt beyond recognition taste like molasses. I’m still working on my hypothesis, but I think it’s her long curly brown-blonde hair and deep almond eyes that make the coffee sweet, and not the sugar. I couldn’t care less for the coffee. I couldn’t care more about her.She hands me the cup and the immediate warmth of her love makes me shiver. “Thank you.” I say to her, smiling with my teeth and making pertinent eye contact. “You’re welcome.” is all she says back to me. If only she knew how badly I wanted to make love to her peaceful looking body. Could I have had found peace in her as badly as I wanted to offer her peace? I wanted to tell her how much I wanted to hold her around the small of her back. How much I wanted her bare chest pressed against mine. And I think most of all, I just wanted her to kiss me. Although graceful in her movements, she disappears into the back of the store quickly. Suddenly I remember I mean nothing to her, and my coffee feels strangely cold. Grief-stricken, overpriced coffee in hand, I walk back out onto the sidewalk. Just as I’m about to get back into my car, I open the lid, let the steam hit my face for a couple of seconds before pouring the brown water onto the street, watching it making its way towards a rain gutter.
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2020.09.22 06:06 killerkelpykid24 I 25F feel like I can no longer fall in love. Is there anything I can do to fix this?

I 25F was in an abusive relationship which lasted for 4 years. It was my first relationship and it ended late 2018. I've dated around and actually fell in love on one other occasion (but again had my heart crushed). I currently feel ready to move on. I have chronic depression that I manage with CBT, talking to a counselor and frequent exercise. However no one would notice that I am depressed.
I've started dating recently ( my area is currently low risk for covid) and have found great potentials that I have good chemistry with. However I have found myself feeling like the emotion of love has developed similar to how I experience happiness. The emotion is bland, like I can't experience it fully.
Is this something that will go away with time? Or this the effect of previous abuse, or simply not finding the right connection?
I fear that this is another emotion I have lost and it leaves me feeling hollow.
The depression I have is likely inherited and I don't want to take medication because my mother reacts oddly while on SSRIs.
Is there anything else I can do, besides medication? I have tried meditation, yoga and counseling. All have helped my mental state and I feel great. However I really fear that this emotion has become reduced and it will never be the same.
Is there anything else I can do to change this?
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2020.09.22 06:05 dereckttt Tiktok transphobes making maddd + other trans related ranting

I really wish I could comment on the video that made me discover this girl, but mmm adding just the smidge of the idea of me being truscum on tiktok won't sit well with most of them. First of all for context, this girl(15) made a video reacting to a comment confirming she doesn't believe non-binary is real and is just a phase. Like first of all, being on the side where people actually listen to eachother instead of attacking, obviously nonbinary is real, duh, even though people will believe we think otherwise. I think it's actually funny that we aren't just taking about body dysphoria when it comes to gender dysphoria. I know many people here and people I know get much more dysphoria socially, rather than most be about their body. Like medical transition is definitely not for everyone, especially enby's with dysphoria. But besides that ugh I just wanna just explain to people on that video that I feel with them when I say non binary people are real, not everyone loves microlabels, some use both, some even just use transgender and the entire umbrella. I want people to know that I and this community do agree that anyone who falls under nonbinary are real and valid, even with other labels.
Obviously I can't speak for everyone on this, but honestly, if someone has completely valid discomfort in their assigned gender, whether it's so far that they transition to the other binary, or not so, fitting non binary instead. I feel like the entire community, truscum or tucute, needs to join together in knowing there needs to be some explanation to why someone identifies as what, but still needing to respect they don't have to tell everyone why they do it.
Yaknow?
Idk I just feel like over the years I don't want it be so far extreme with scientific ideas and more flexible ideas, when in the middle is, in my opinion, best for everyone.
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2020.09.22 06:04 Jamievrcade 38 [M4F] SEATTLE - An Efficient Bullet List

Hello, Reddit!
The following points sum a lot of me up. If you are a single woman and you relate to these points, we should get to know one another.
I'm not committed to an outcome here; whatever happens happens and I'm not sure who or what I will find.

If you are interested, send a picture and ask for a picture. If we keep talking afterwards, then we are both attracted to one another. It should be interesting to see what happens!
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2020.09.22 06:03 toxicdeliquency Lots o’ fandoms!

Hey everyone! I’m Tulsa and I’m twenty-one so please please please be over eighteen, bc I’m not tryna catch a case. I’ve had issues in the past where people who play the opposing characters change them so much that it’s not even them anymore, and then the dynamic doesn’t make sense and yeah….. (this makes me sound harsh but i promise I’m not jdsjnddi).
RULES
FORMAT;; Since these are characters that we’re playing, I’d prefer us both to use third person POV. I get very invested in my characters, but find it a bit uncomfortable when I, or my partner, is using ‘I’, it makes it too personal for me. As for doubling, that’s something I don’t do, and I know that’s usually a turn-off. I just feel it’s easier, and more fun to focus on one story/couple. I will play side characters if we need/like, but I only do one thread. I hope that makes sense lol
LENGTH;; As I tend to write stories in my free time, I do prefer longer replies. My starters will usually be anywhere from 3-5 paragraphs, and my replies at least 2, usually more depending on the scene and how much my partner is giving me. I’m not too strict about this, but I do like details, so if you’re a one-line roleplayer, we are not a good fit. For more of a glance at my length, feel free to check out my writing samples: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1ZRxKbX59YvNCXJejHsUHrfP0mlo_KHt9ivZRUwyrdWI/edit?usp=sharing
LIMITS;; I prefer my plots to be about 70/30 when it comes to story/smut. Limits and things of that nature can be discussed in private if need be!
PLOTTING;; As long as we’re both putting forth effort into the plot, I’m down. It’s just hard to come up with a plot by yourself, especially because you don’t know if the other person will like it. Also, if we start a plot and you find yourself bored and/or would like to try something else, don’t hesitate to ask! This whole ad makes me sound so serious, but I swear I’m just a smol girl.
REPLY RATE;; Since I am a college student, my replies may be a bit scattered. Due to Covid, I’m available almost all day everyday so I’d love someone who’s able to do quick, but also literate replies! I will always do my best to send out a reply at least once a day though, but on weekends you can expect quick replies throughout the day.
I think that’s it for all of the formalities, so onto the fun stuff!
Vampire Diaries Kol Mikaelson & Averie Forbes… BIO: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1kZthnbN1uGMLaGh_MVjBV2Sgmy_qtY9xYuPU0Q7BUaA/edit?usp=sharing Plot ideas: i really want to do something with Stockholm syndrome? Like maybe he takes her as a way to get back at Klaus or something?
Marvel/MCU Loki Laufeyson & Eira Jarledottir… BIO: https://docs.google.com/document/d/102xmk63dnwe5RMbJegfi-cy4AZtev2IZVafhaejuCvw Plot Ideas: when Loki is disguised as Odin and we can have her come back to Asgard and she’s completely heartbroken when she finds out Loki is ‘dead’. Or, we could do something set before the films if we’d like! Or something kind of AU where Eira is there when Loki finds out about his true lineage.
Stranger Things Billy Hargrove & Katrina ‘Kat’ Wheeler… BIO: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1X_Xz7SOiHZpjlLyrqvzRpP-Kt-sy0zRDBDPxpMDBS2w Plot Ideas: i don’t have any specifics for this one, but I just picture a ton of angst and a lot of unsaid feelings. I’d love to maybe try an AU where Billy survives the events of season 3 and he’s trying to find himself and figure out how to move forward and Kat wants to help but she’s not quite sure how. Or, I’m always down for good old teenage rebellion that takes place during season 2 or before the whole ‘possession of Billy’ thing happens.
Teen Wolf Derek Hale & Paige Krasikeva… BIO: https://docs.google.com/document/d/10KtrZRng-j9k4TJ1gZmSJRdqAcqdE2iIM5sfgEe3MLs Plot Ideas: I’m thinking something along the lines of Derek sees her at the school and is completely shaken and she has absolutely no memory of the situation. So then maybe they re-fall in love or he like steadily tries to help her regain her memory. Another way to go would be they rekindle a romance, Paige having no idea of their history, and then Peter giving her back her memories but they’ve been skewed to make Derek look like the bad guy. Stiles Stilinski & Lydia Martin They were my first OTP and I’d love to get the chance to play Lydia again. I’m kind of down for anything with this couple.
Criminal Minds Spencer Reid(or a male oc) & Olivia Fray… BIO: https://docs.google.com/document/d/19hC6zvvbkFVaQMwwY5K-mlHOccm1YFd9j8m2CguN2AI/edit Plot Ideas: They meet on a case and she ends up getting too deep and someone has to save her. Or she could get hired as like media personnel to give debriefings. I’ve only played in this fandom once, I’m still working things out so bare with me.
I believe that’s it??? I’m really craving these plots right now, so if anyone wants to do them I’d be eternally grateful! Also, if you have any plot ideas of your own for these pairings, don’t be afraid to share them!!! If you’re interested, please feel free to reach out !
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2020.09.22 06:03 ReckMyTeckDeck I don’t want to fall in love.

I don’t want to fall in love because I’ll leave this earth one day and they will be sad and broken hearted and I don’t want to do that to anyone I just don’t want to fall in love but I want to fall in love sooo fucking bad I want to love someone I really do I can’t though because I’ll die soon I don’t want to do that to someone because I will die soon what will they even do? I don’t fucking know but I don’t want to find out.
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2020.09.22 06:02 asleepybunny 30 [F4M] USA/Anywhere - Give me that sweet oxytocin

You know that happy fuzzy feeling you get when you see a message from a new friend or someone you like? I want that :)
I want to laugh, share secrets, exchange witty banter, get to know each other better by sending silly messages throughout the day. We can talk about random things, play 20 questions, share playlists, and everything else in between.
I stay up late most nights so I’d love a sweet and funny friend to chat with, keep me company, and be a pleasant distraction while I procrastinate work.
A few other details: I’m an illustrator from the west coast. I like long walks in the park so I can stare longingly at the cute dogs. Puns and dorky facts are my jam, but actual jam usually isn’t. I love the smell of rain, falling asleep to the sound of thunder, long messages or walls of text, oatmeal cookies, and daydreaming about the day when I’ll feel safe to leave my apartment and travel again.
I would prefer someone closer to my age (26 and up), and I would definitely give bonus points if you send me a voice note (since I’m a sucker for those).
To be clear, I’m not looking for a boyfriend. I’m married (open, but I’m not looking for a relationship right now).
If any of this sounds fun or appealing to you, come say hi :)
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2020.09.22 06:01 ilikebigtite Holly fuck and I was falling in love with this car and thinking I was ganna buy one one day because I thoght thay were cheap but nope I was wrong

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2020.09.22 06:01 omoultakos Clark Ashton Smith and The King in Yellow

I've read somewhere that Clark Ashton Smith was a great admirer of R. W. Chambers' The King in Yellow, even listing "The Yellow Sign" as one of his very favorite stories. I recently learned that CAS never listed Chambers as one of his literary influences, and when I was reading The King in Yellow I noted several differences in style and execution between them. Nonetheless, I still see a few similarities:
1) CAS' fantasies and the KiY stories have romantic relationships that are heavily seeped in black magic and forbidden arts.
2) CAS and KiY both invest in the themes of love, death, transience, decadence, and transcendental beauty.
3) CAS and KiY both invented strange worlds full of morbid grandeur and ominous mysteries, though in KiY's case Carcosa is only briefly hinted.
4) CAS and KiY both feature wistful, troubled, romantic artists as their stories' protagonists.
5) A very dark form of irony and sardonic humor presides over both CAS and KiY.
Of course, the way these similarities are handled is different between the authors. Chambers was more focused on the psychological investment of his characters, while CAS' characters are comparatively straightforward like in a myth or fairytale. And CAS' romances are far darker than Chambers', with such samples as a man falling in love with an undead Lamia even when he knows she'll kill him, or a devoted Christian relinquishing his faith and duty to have sensuous fun with a pagan sorceress, or a space-faring demon who passes his idle immortal life by doing depraved things like having sex with basilisks (yes, these all really happened in his work). And CAS' stories are much more wild and fantastic in their weird imagery, whereas Chambers' stories demonstrate a nuanced form of dream-like surrealism invading mundane reality.
Does anyone else on this reddit have any interesting thoughts on the differences and similarities between Clark Ashton Smith's stories and The King in Yellow? Are they similar enough that there could be some vague link between them whether through influence or interest? I never see anyone discussing these two authors together.
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2020.09.22 06:00 LightRingStars My sister, her stepkids, and parental favoritism.

For context, My (22f) older sister (31f) has several kids, 2 sons from her first marriage (8/12M) two daughters from her current marriage (both infants), and two stepsons from her husband’s first marriage (12/15M) due to my BIL’s ex-wife being a military wife and hating her Ex with a crazy passion (that’s a whole other story) he only gets to see his kids 2-3 times a year (Summer break and XMas), and her treatment of the kids is (from my knowledge) neglectful and possibly abusive (which my sister is aware of). I lived with them for several years after our mom died (hence how I know all this)
My sister has told me she has trouble connecting with her stepsons with how little she gets to see them. She claims she loves them, but I’m starting to have trouble believing that.
She blatantly prefers her biological kids to her stepsons. Parental favoritism is one thing, and I wouldn’t hold this against her as much if it was nothing more than a slight bias.
It’s not a slight bias.
This summer they visited as usual, and my sister made no effort to spend time with them on their own. There was a two week period where her bio kids were with their dad and she never spent any time with them, I think she got mad at one of them when he tried to spend time with her when she got off work. In addition, they were punished for every minor thing they did wrong. Forget chores one day? No games for a week. Fall asleep while helping me watch her daughters after waking up at 2 am to see off a visitor? They get yelled at even after I tell her I’m not mad at them. What makes this worse is that she lets her other kids get away with similar things with no punishment (I don’t know if it’s because they’re older but I don’t think that entirely justifies any of this).
This all comes to a head when her bio kids come home from their dads, and she literally kicks them out of the dinner table to talk to them. I know she’s excited to see them, but the entire interaction came across as super dismissive of them to me. This ended up bleeding into the kids' relationship with each other, they didn’t hang out together as much when it was all four of them, and they got into several fights.
I spent the majority of the summer with the stepkids when they visited. Even if they aren’t technically my family by blood they’re like little brothers to me. Shortly before they left for their mothers I was talking them down after an argument with their stepbrothers when they straight up tell me they’re aware that my sister treats them worse than her other kids. One of them says they aren’t excited to see her when they visit. The other straight up says “I don’t think (my sister) likes us as much as (their stepbrothers)”
When they left she began converting their room into a guest room, claiming that since they don’t visit much anyway and that the oldest is gonna be 18 in a few years it was fine.
Parental favoritism is one thing, but this just feels so much worse to me. I already have a strained relationship with my sister (another different story) but they don’t deserve to be treated like this. My heart breaks for them, and now that I finally moved out of town I worry for them when they see their dad next time. And I’m angry that my sister would do this. Maybe I’m overreacting, but that’s how I feel.
Sorry for the length, thanks for reading.
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2020.09.22 06:00 helloworddd Huawei Announces New Developer Technologies Capable of Smarter All-Scenario Experiences

Huawei Announces New Developer Technologies Capable of Smarter All-Scenario Experiences
Find more ,please visit here.
Huawei Developer Conference 2020 (Together) was held today at Songshan Lake. In the keynote speech, Huawei announced major upcoming updates for HarmonyOS 2.0, EMUI 11, HMS(Huawei Mobile Services), HUAWEI HiLink, and HUAWEI Research. These improvements will empower global developers and ecosystem partners to provide enhanced and innovative user experiences for users. At the event, Huawei also unveiled six new products that will contribute to Huawei’s all-scenario experience – HUAWEI MateBook X, HUAWEI MateBook 14, HUAWEI WATCH GT 2 Pro, HUAWEI FreeBuds Pro, HUAWEI WATCH FIT and HUAWEI FreeLace Pro.
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During the three days, Huawei will bring together developers from around the world through various exciting activities, including Lakeside Talks, Tech. Sessions, Tech. Hour, Codelabs and more. The itinerary will provide opportunities for developers to network, collaborate, and explore ways to bring smart all-scenario experiences to every user.
“Huawei’s breakthrough in ecosystem development is a result of the strong support from global developers and partners. Huawei will fully open core technologies as well as software and hardware capabilities to developers, collaborating with them to drive further innovation of an all-scenario smart ecosystem,” said Richard Yu, Executive Director and CEO of Huawei Consumer Business Group. “Stars shine through even the darkest night. Each of our developers is a star. Together they form a brilliant array. That will light the way. ”
HarmonyOS 2.0: Officially Open Source with Mobile HarmonyOS Beta Available to Developers by Year End
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Huawei announced its all-scenario experience operating system, HarmonyOS, back in 2019. Since then, a robust line-up of devices has been developed for the system, facilitating quick device discovery, instant connection, hardware collaboration, and resource sharing between multiple smart devices. HarmonyOS 2.0 is announced today, bringing a comprehensive upgrade to its existing distributed capabilities, including software bus, data management, and security. Huawei also introduced an adaptive UX framework that allows developers to quickly reach tens of millions of new devices and users.
With the latest update, HarmonyOS will officially be open-source and developers will be able to gain access to emulators, SDK packages, and IDE tools. The open source project, which is donated toOpenAtom Foundation, will be launched in stages with a mobile HarmonyOS beta release planned firstly for Chinese developers at the end of 2020. Richard Yu announced the roadmap for HarmonyOS in his keynote speech. “Starting on 10 September, HarmonyOS is open to 128KB-128MB IoT devices, such as smart TVs, wearables, cars and more. In April 2021, we will open it to 128MB-4GB devices and in October 2021, HarmonyOS will be opened for devices above 4GB,” he said.
Based on the distributed technology in HarmonyOS, the newly released EMUI 11 enables interaction beyond smartphones. The new operating system allows devices interact with HarmonyOS-based IoT devices, bringing a unique all-scenario experience to users, including using the camera of a bigger-screen device for video calling. The process is powered by the touchless connection between smartphones and HarmonyOS-based home devices, enabling screen projection and more.
Huawei Mobile Services (HMS) Ecosystem: Breaking Ground as The World’s Third Largest Mobile App Ecosystem
With the support of more 1.8 million registered developers worldwide, AppGallery and the HMS ecosystem has continued to show progress this year. AppGallery currently has over 96,000 apps integrated with HMS Core and more than 490 million global active users. In addition, it also achieved a record 261 billion app downloads and distributions between January and August 2020.
In a single year, HMS Core 5.0’s open capabilities have increased from 14 Kits to 56 Kits, while the number of APIs has jumped from 885 to 12,981 covering seven major areas, helping developers achieve innovation and simplify the development process.
For instance, the CG Kit in the Graphics field improves graphics, image quality and experience, as well as improving game screen rendering efficiency. Location kit in the App Services category meets the positioning requirements, providing centimetre to millimetre accuracy location tracking depending on the scenario.
Huawei is committed to fully opening its core software and hardware capabilities. It has opened up core software services, such as browsing, search, map, payment, advertising kits, to accelerate innovation in app development. Huawei has also open up hardware capabilities such as its world-class camera capabilities, AR map capabilities, communication and transmission tools, as well as its leading privacy and security protection capabilities. Through these, Huawei seeks to empower developers to create a new generation of well-loved innovative apps across different categories.
Huawei also has extensive support to assist developers explore business opportunities in China and other global markets, by providing relevant consulting service, localization and integration, marketing and campaign services.
Going forward, Huawei continues to expand developer services. Huawei is building three global ecosystem cooperation labs in Russia, Poland, and Germany to serve global developers and provide enablement, testing, and certification services. Five global developer service centres will also be established in Romania, Malaysia, Egypt, Mexico, and Russia, providing local services and platforms to help developers better grow and innovate.
HUAWEI HiLink: Enabling Billions of IoT Devices to Connect, Manage and Exchange
As the standardised language of IoT Devices, HiLink breaks down barriers between IoT devices from different brands and manufacturers, providing a unified platform where devices can connect easily, and interact seamlessly.
This year, upgrades to HUAWEI HiLink will be made in five key areas: connection, interaction, operation, solution provider, and authentication. The goal is to make billions of IoT devices connect easily, more convenient to manage and control, and interact seamlessly to enable an all-scenario hardware ecosystem. At present, there are 50 million active users contributing more than 1 billion all-scenario device interaction requests every day, with a cumulative 400 million downloads of the Smart Life App
Automobile is also a key tenet of the IoT industry. The HiCar platform will continue to empower automobile industry. HiCar is currently collaborating with over 150 car models with more planned so that more car owners will enjoy the new smart travel experience in the near future.
Huawei is committed to the growth of the IoT hardware ecosystem. By providing more devices with access to HiLink platform, it strives to make IoT development easier and more efficient, enabling Huawei to simultaneously support partners in establishing industry leadership in the IoT sector.
HUAWEI Research: The innovative research platform
HUAWEI Research, which focuses on front-end research, opens two key platform capabilities HUAWEI Research Kit and HUAWEI Research Cloud. These capabilities facilitate efficient innovative research processes, accelerate technological breakthroughs, incubate apps innovations as well as quickly achieve result transformation. As a result, scientific research institutions, innovation institutions, industry organisations, medical institutions and other industry partners are empowered, allowing industries from all sectors to prosper.
In the Active Health Field, Huawei assisted in heart health research by ensuring that health research data collected is accurate and diverse. In the Travel Safety Field, mobile and wearable devices intelligently collaborate with automobiles to bring new safe-driving technologies such as the collision avoidance system and driver fatigue care. In the Home Life Field, Huawei harness multi-device wireless sensing capabilities to provide features, such as fall detection, non-inductive breathing monitoring and spatial positioning.
Huawei will continue to drive its software and hardware ecosystem moving forward. It is committed to opening up core technologies and capabilities further and empowering global developers and partners to create new possibilities together.
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2020.09.22 05:59 secondtoasterintub [WP] Your zany uncle passes away and you inherit his house out in the woods and find it full of his robotic creations intelligent and so well made as to be works of art. They also fall in love WAY too easily!

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2020.09.22 05:59 Viva_La_Animemes Hinata x Reader fanfic series im making

Basically, our main character (You, yes you reader) was an Akatsuki member, he gets captured by the Leaf, and falls in love with Hinata
https://www.wattpad.com/953786649-hinata-hyuga-x-male-reader-chapter-1
(I'm sorry its on Wattpad and not other sites, as I like writing in the Wattpad format better) Chapter 3 will be out tomorrow.
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2020.09.22 05:54 ilo58416 F21 wait or go- long

I need help with this situation I’m currently in an has literally taken over my life.. I met this guy M(22) on tinder in the end of April. We added each other on Snapchat and in less than a week of talking 24 hours a day we told each other that we were in love with each other which is crazy but we thought so. He was everything I wanted any more.. When we first started to talk I wasn’t serious about it just looking to meet new ppl to talk to but I believe he uses dating apps in the past and has a history but I’ll get to that. We would talk almost 24’7 texting and sending pics vids and voice messages. Whenever he would say something about me I wonder how does he say all the perfect things? It must be because he has so much experience from talking to girls so he knows what to say, but he didn’t come across as that guy. When we started to talk I asked him about his past relationships and he told me he had 2 not so serious relationship and brushed past it without giving me the chance to ask about them like I usually do with other guys. He’s done a lot of similar things to this when I’d ask him and he never really asked any questions about my life other than my hobbies when we first started to talk.
Later on I realized he didn’t even know my full name but he claimed that he wanted to marry me.. crazy I know I don’t know how I fell for it either. When it started to get more serious he kept insisting that I should fall for him since he fell for me and he didn’t know what to do, and I did but I don’t think he meant what he said.. I told him ways we could meet and he would never really say anything just kind of imply that I should be the one going to him but he never said that he would actually try to meet me. whenever I’d try to ask him about himself he would say that he was afraid to fall more in love and that he didn’t know what to do if he did because “it’s already crazy like this” which was hard to understand. He had exams during that time so by the end of May he started to ghost me for a few days and that’s how it started. He would constantly say that “it’s going to get better I promise” and I didn’t mind waiting because I understood he had exams.
Then his exams ended but he ghosted me for a week and then texts me and says that “I’m going to call you tonight and explain everything I promise ):” and then he ghosted me. I sent him multiple texts which I regret but I could resist at the time and videos telling him that I wasnt sure if he was loyal to me. When we started to get more “serious” I showed him that I deleted my tinder account but he didn’t delete his. I never used tinder seriously, it didn’t have my real name and just a picture of me from a view of someone standing behind me. But he did use to seriously.
After a few days he told me that he was going to delete it because he wanted me but his account was still there and he didn’t show me him deleting the app. Another thing to note is because we communicated on Snapchat his snap score was over 1,300,000 when we first started talking and now it’s almost 1.5 million. When he would disappear or while he was ignoring me his snap score would go up 1 thousand at least per day which alarmed me.
He told me that it was groupchats with school stuff for exams (his exams were only a week and this continued before and after exams). At first he wasn’t the type I’d usually go for, but after he kept showing me his “love” I decided why not since I wanted a guy that I thought would treat me right.
After about 40 days of him ghosting me I posted this picture on my story of me and my guy friend honestly to try to make him jealous. Well it worked but he removed me from my account (I have 2 accounts) so I texted him on my other one and tried to call him but he wouldn’t pick up . He texted me and said he would text later so I waited and he sent me a paragraph explaining that he didn’t do well in school and so many things happened with his life and friends and that when he thought of me it fucked him up that he couldn’t meet me and it just gave him more stress so he was afraid to fall in love and get more feelings .
We talked about the guy and he told me he removed me because he was angry and realized he cared so much but if he was my bf he couldn’t do anything about it so he removed me. Then I explained to him about how much he literally broke me and things that happened when he was away and he told me that he wasn’t sure if he deserved me and that I should’nt be so nice to him . He then goes on to say that he wasn’t sure if this was realistic and that anything could happen and he didn’t want our thing to increase and then for it to hurt both of us and that he didn’t want to hurt me. And that I should blame him for not explaining and “he did what he did” and he did apologize once by saying I’m sorry but yeah. He told me that he really wanted me and that he really did care and want us to work and he didn’t remove me because he “still wanted” me there, but the issue is I’m not the type of girl to wait but I did for this guy because I can’t move on.
He promised that if he had doubts he wouldn’t disappear again and would face them with me. After this we started to talk the end of July again and he told me that we should try again and that he “needed” me but he started disappearing again like texting once a day or every other day so I told him that I needed a break to think about it and he told me to let him know if I had any doubts. So I stopped texting him for a while and then his birthday came around so I sent him a video telling me happy birthday and he answered immediately and told me that he missed me so much and we talked all day and he even asked me when I would wake up so we could continue talking.
So the next day and the day after were kind of similar but something felt off. After those days he started texting once a day again and being dry and he said he had work and would come home 4am and then go work at 7am and I asked him where did he work but he didn’t let me know.. I was worried about why he would be out all night since sometimes he’d say that he would be out with his friends and come home so late. After a while I sent him a voice message hinting that I wasn’t sure about this anymore because he would just disappear. While he was at work his snap score would go up thousands as well. He told me that he hoped it wasn’t anything negative and I changed the subject and then he ghosted me again for a few days and I sent him texts but then deleted them since he wouldn’t answer and just texted never mind. and then he texted me saying that he promised to be sincere with me and that he’s doing it right now but that some shit in his life “take his mind away and don’t let me focus on this stuff” and that sometimes he thinks he’s not ready for this but he still wants me? I replied saying I wasn’t sure since you keep disappearing and he hasn’t read my message and has been ghosting me for more than a month now.
He uses Snapchat everyday because his Snapchat score goes up at least 1,000 everyday . When he came back after ghosting me he told me he wasn’t interested in talking to new people or girls but I told him if he wanted to would he and he said he would “start by talking to you” I was confused and wondered what would start mean but didn’t want to make a fuss about it so I told him that’s a good answer and he told me “I know I know” which made me feel like he’s done this before . He said he wanted it to work and that we should start talking everyday like how we used to and see how it goes and that everything was perfect and he missed it. The reason why he didn’t want us to increase is because he said it happened to him before (long distance I guess) and he didn’t want that to happen again. He would always say that he only wanted me but I just can’t believe that because he literally left me so many times.
So after he kept ghosting I decided to do some digging to figure out more about this guy. He never asked for my number, other social media so I felt like he was hiding something from me.
After doing some searching I found lots of red flags from his social media.
A few years ago when I believe he was in highschool he would constantly post things like “like my post and I’ll vote who the most beautiful girl is”
And “like my post whoever is the most beautiful I will talk to her online tonight”
I saw a lot of things that broke my heart and disgusting things like “I make all girls wet” and describing what kind of girl he wanted.
And it wasn’t a one time thing it was endless posts of voting girls by beauty and them voting him. And honestly it killed me seeing all those girls desperate for his attention. Some were recent but he stopped posting on those platforms over a year ago but it still makes me wonder if that’s still how he is.
I saw some things about him being okay with friends with benefits and other huge red flags that just made me feel like an idiot for falling for a guy I didn’t know.
He had his Snapchat in every bio of his social media (including the ones he currently uses). He follows an alarming amount of girls online and would basically call every girl “mine” and say I love you to every girl ! It would also be girls telling him that they hadn’t heard from him so it freaked me out that I was just another girl that he played with. Girls would also ask him what type of girl he wanted and it made me so upset..
Which was crazy to me because he would always say that he’s “not like this and he doesn’t say I love you and I want you to every girl” but I mean the proof is all there💔
So guys and gals and everyone help me out here, should I run or stay??
I genuinely don’t want him and it’s hard to see a future with him after this and the things I found out.. but it breaks my heart because there’s a part of me that still wants him and I just wish that he was the guy that made me think I found the one.. there was a time when he told me I was the one but now it just hurts wondering who he’s said that to too..
I convinced myself to fall in love with this guy who turned out to be worse than any guy I’ve ever met and I really don’t know what to do.. Every morning and night he’s just on my mind and it just hurts because of how easily he forgets me
I genuinely feel like he just wants me around until he finds the next best thing. When looking at this posts which are public it was just him telling multiple girls the same thing and girls begging for him to vote them which repulsed me. That’s just not the kind of guy I’d ever want and he just gave me extreme player vibes which freaked me out. As they say once a player always a player but maybe he wasn’t one or am I just being in denial and wishing that he was the guy of my dreams that I told him he was ):
Any input or advice would be very helpful I am currently waiting until he comes back to see what his reaction will be and to decide if I should just end it since this seems never ending. Am I judging him too hard based on his past? It wasn’t that long ago and I don’t consider that to be normal behavior at all so I’m worried he might still be the same
The worst part of all is that I’ll never be able to trust a guy again and he ruined my perspective of love forever. Everything reminds me of him and it’s been impossible to get him off my mind..
I don’t think he saw as a long term thing despite what he told me due to the fact that he literally knows nothing about me and never asked “because he was afraid to fall in love “. He never called like he said he would and just always disappeared without saying anything. Although he says that he wasn’t talking to girls I don’t trust him because of him past (calling multiple girls “his” and saying I love you etc)
It’s been more than a month again since I’ve last heard of him and I’m wondering if this time should be the last time or should I give him another chance based on the unique connection we had?
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2020.09.22 05:54 ilo58416 F 21 unexpected love , wait or go- long

I need help with this situation I’m currently in an has literally taken over my life.. I met this guy M(22) on tinder in the end of April. We added each other on Snapchat and in less than a week of talking 24 hours a day we told each other that we were in love with each other which is crazy but we thought so. He was everything I wanted any more.. When we first started to talk I wasn’t serious about it just looking to meet new ppl to talk to but I believe he uses dating apps in the past and has a history but I’ll get to that. We would talk almost 24’7 texting and sending pics vids and voice messages. Whenever he would say something about me I wonder how does he say all the perfect things? It must be because he has so much experience from talking to girls so he knows what to say, but he didn’t come across as that guy. When we started to talk I asked him about his past relationships and he told me he had 2 not so serious relationship and brushed past it without giving me the chance to ask about them like I usually do with other guys. He’s done a lot of similar things to this when I’d ask him and he never really asked any questions about my life other than my hobbies when we first started to talk.
Later on I realized he didn’t even know my full name but he claimed that he wanted to marry me.. crazy I know I don’t know how I fell for it either. When it started to get more serious he kept insisting that I should fall for him since he fell for me and he didn’t know what to do, and I did but I don’t think he meant what he said.. I told him ways we could meet and he would never really say anything just kind of imply that I should be the one going to him but he never said that he would actually try to meet me. whenever I’d try to ask him about himself he would say that he was afraid to fall more in love and that he didn’t know what to do if he did because “it’s already crazy like this” which was hard to understand. He had exams during that time so by the end of May he started to ghost me for a few days and that’s how it started. He would constantly say that “it’s going to get better I promise” and I didn’t mind waiting because I understood he had exams.
Then his exams ended but he ghosted me for a week and then texts me and says that “I’m going to call you tonight and explain everything I promise ):” and then he ghosted me. I sent him multiple texts which I regret but I could resist at the time and videos telling him that I wasnt sure if he was loyal to me. When we started to get more “serious” I showed him that I deleted my tinder account but he didn’t delete his. I never used tinder seriously, it didn’t have my real name and just a picture of me from a view of someone standing behind me. But he did use to seriously.
After a few days he told me that he was going to delete it because he wanted me but his account was still there and he didn’t show me him deleting the app. Another thing to note is because we communicated on Snapchat his snap score was over 1,300,000 when we first started talking and now it’s almost 1.5 million. When he would disappear or while he was ignoring me his snap score would go up 1 thousand at least per day which alarmed me.
He told me that it was groupchats with school stuff for exams (his exams were only a week and this continued before and after exams). At first he wasn’t the type I’d usually go for, but after he kept showing me his “love” I decided why not since I wanted a guy that I thought would treat me right.
After about 40 days of him ghosting me I posted this picture on my story of me and my guy friend honestly to try to make him jealous. Well it worked but he removed me from my account (I have 2 accounts) so I texted him on my other one and tried to call him but he wouldn’t pick up . He texted me and said he would text later so I waited and he sent me a paragraph explaining that he didn’t do well in school and so many things happened with his life and friends and that when he thought of me it fucked him up that he couldn’t meet me and it just gave him more stress so he was afraid to fall in love and get more feelings .
We talked about the guy and he told me he removed me because he was angry and realized he cared so much but if he was my bf he couldn’t do anything about it so he removed me. Then I explained to him about how much he literally broke me and things that happened when he was away and he told me that he wasn’t sure if he deserved me and that I should’nt be so nice to him . He then goes on to say that he wasn’t sure if this was realistic and that anything could happen and he didn’t want our thing to increase and then for it to hurt both of us and that he didn’t want to hurt me. And that I should blame him for not explaining and “he did what he did” and he did apologize once by saying I’m sorry but yeah. He told me that he really wanted me and that he really did care and want us to work and he didn’t remove me because he “still wanted” me there, but the issue is I’m not the type of girl to wait but I did for this guy because I can’t move on.
He promised that if he had doubts he wouldn’t disappear again and would face them with me. After this we started to talk the end of July again and he told me that we should try again and that he “needed” me but he started disappearing again like texting once a day or every other day so I told him that I needed a break to think about it and he told me to let him know if I had any doubts. So I stopped texting him for a while and then his birthday came around so I sent him a video telling me happy birthday and he answered immediately and told me that he missed me so much and we talked all day and he even asked me when I would wake up so we could continue talking.
So the next day and the day after were kind of similar but something felt off. After those days he started texting once a day again and being dry and he said he had work and would come home 4am and then go work at 7am and I asked him where did he work but he didn’t let me know.. I was worried about why he would be out all night since sometimes he’d say that he would be out with his friends and come home so late. After a while I sent him a voice message hinting that I wasn’t sure about this anymore because he would just disappear. While he was at work his snap score would go up thousands as well. He told me that he hoped it wasn’t anything negative and I changed the subject and then he ghosted me again for a few days and I sent him texts but then deleted them since he wouldn’t answer and just texted never mind. and then he texted me saying that he promised to be sincere with me and that he’s doing it right now but that some shit in his life “take his mind away and don’t let me focus on this stuff” and that sometimes he thinks he’s not ready for this but he still wants me? I replied saying I wasn’t sure since you keep disappearing and he hasn’t read my message and has been ghosting me for more than a month now.
He uses Snapchat everyday because his Snapchat score goes up at least 1,000 everyday . When he came back after ghosting me he told me he wasn’t interested in talking to new people or girls but I told him if he wanted to would he and he said he would “start by talking to you” I was confused and wondered what would start mean but didn’t want to make a fuss about it so I told him that’s a good answer and he told me “I know I know” which made me feel like he’s done this before . He said he wanted it to work and that we should start talking everyday like how we used to and see how it goes and that everything was perfect and he missed it. The reason why he didn’t want us to increase is because he said it happened to him before (long distance I guess) and he didn’t want that to happen again. He would always say that he only wanted me but I just can’t believe that because he literally left me so many times.
So after he kept ghosting I decided to do some digging to figure out more about this guy. He never asked for my number, other social media so I felt like he was hiding something from me.
After doing some searching I found lots of red flags from his social media.
A few years ago when I believe he was in highschool he would constantly post things like “like my post and I’ll vote who the most beautiful girl is”
And “like my post whoever is the most beautiful I will talk to her online tonight”
I saw a lot of things that broke my heart and disgusting things like “I make all girls wet” and describing what kind of girl he wanted.
And it wasn’t a one time thing it was endless posts of voting girls by beauty and them voting him. And honestly it killed me seeing all those girls desperate for his attention. Some were recent but he stopped posting on those platforms over a year ago but it still makes me wonder if that’s still how he is.
I saw some things about him being okay with friends with benefits and other huge red flags that just made me feel like an idiot for falling for a guy I didn’t know.
He had his Snapchat in every bio of his social media (including the ones he currently uses). He follows an alarming amount of girls online and would basically call every girl “mine” and say I love you to every girl ! It would also be girls telling him that they hadn’t heard from him so it freaked me out that I was just another girl that he played with. Girls would also ask him what type of girl he wanted and it made me so upset..
Which was crazy to me because he would always say that he’s “not like this and he doesn’t say I love you and I want you to every girl” but I mean the proof is all there💔
So guys and gals and everyone help me out here, should I run or stay??
I genuinely don’t want him and it’s hard to see a future with him after this and the things I found out.. but it breaks my heart because there’s a part of me that still wants him and I just wish that he was the guy that made me think I found the one.. there was a time when he told me I was the one but now it just hurts wondering who he’s said that to too..
I convinced myself to fall in love with this guy who turned out to be worse than any guy I’ve ever met and I really don’t know what to do.. Every morning and night he’s just on my mind and it just hurts because of how easily he forgets me
I genuinely feel like he just wants me around until he finds the next best thing. When looking at this posts which are public it was just him telling multiple girls the same thing and girls begging for him to vote them which repulsed me. That’s just not the kind of guy I’d ever want and he just gave me extreme player vibes which freaked me out. As they say once a player always a player but maybe he wasn’t one or am I just being in denial and wishing that he was the guy of my dreams that I told him he was ):
Any input or advice would be very helpful I am currently waiting until he comes back to see what his reaction will be and to decide if I should just end it since this seems never ending. Am I judging him too hard based on his past? It wasn’t that long ago and I don’t consider that to be normal behavior at all so I’m worried he might still be the same
The worst part of all is that I’ll never be able to trust a guy again and he ruined my perspective of love forever. Everything reminds me of him and it’s been impossible to get him off my mind..
I don’t think he saw as a long term thing despite what he told me due to the fact that he literally knows nothing about me and never asked “because he was afraid to fall in love “. He never called like he said he would and just always disappeared without saying anything. Although he says that he wasn’t talking to girls I don’t trust him because of him past (calling multiple girls “his” and saying I love you etc)
It’s been more than a month again since I’ve last heard of him and I’m wondering if this time should be the last time or should I give him another chance based on the unique connection we had?
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2020.09.22 05:54 forevertokyo My uncle is a monster and I don’t know what to do.

I’m not sure if this is even the sub I should post this on but I need to vent and let all of my sadness out before I go crazy.
This all started when I (19F) was visiting my grandma with my mother and brother in 2014. She lives with her two other sons, one who has always been very quiet and one who has always been the outgoing one. One night my mother and my grandma were arguing and the outgoing uncle ran down the stairs, started screaming at my mother and shoved her against the wall. He then punched my brother in the face for trying to protect my mom, and when I rushed downstairs to see what was going on, he yanked my ear and slammed my head against the wall. I haven’t been back there since.
Ever since then, he has made not only my grandmas life a living hell, my family’s life a living hell, and my other uncle and his family’s life a living hell. He has sent my aunt multiple threatening and racist voicemails, calling her the n word and threatening to hurt her children. Mind you the cops were called on him multiple times and he is only sent to a mental hospital, where he is released soon after and prescribed medication that he has not been taking.
Tonight’s the night where everything went over the edge. This happened after my brother called my grandma to check in, where my uncle picked up the phone and was rambling about things saying ‘I love my mom, I’ve never been this close with her, but she’s failing’ Couple hours later, my grandma was taken to the hospital after breaking her pelvis. Her arms were covered in bruises and she was wearing long shirts and pants. She was asked how this happened, and said she didn’t know, then she said she fell in the bathroom, and then she fell on the stairs.
It’s difficult to think about but we believe my uncle has been abusing my grandmother, since she has broken a bunch of bones from the previous years from ‘falling down the stairs’. He has also admitted to stealing her underwear for god knows what, and we also believe he has been threatening and breaking the brother that lives with him’s personal items to the point where he can’t do anything. My grandmother has also been extremely dehydrated and barely eats because she is unable to cook and nobody helps her. Their house is filthy and many things don’t work (the toilet, the oven, etc.) My uncle comes in with dirty shoes and clothes and doesnt even shower anymore. They don’t go out for groceries and none of them work. It is a complete disaster.
And the worst part about it all is that we live a border apart and currently aren’t able to go there due to border restrictions but there is no doubt that he may end up killing her. I’m not sure what to do but I know there is no time left because she is 82 and he is just gaining more and more power over her.
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